will show them to you later=)
g'nite, miss u^^

and today, i'm in love with wine again. it really helps through the night.
i'm trying not to care about anything, and it seems like i've succeeded. i should celebrate this night.

i did not regret going to CC. it was so much fun, fun with people i know and don't know. yes the competition itself was depressing, knowing the fact that we didn't have any proper preparation.

and it's raining heavily out there. you know i love rain very much. the unseen rain. 'apakah hujan jatuh dalam bentuk titik-titik atau jarum?'
surely it's needles, because it hurts. and while i never love being hurt, it's been a part of my life.

it's good that livejournal is behaving normally again. i've been considering moving my future posts to the blogger account.

i don't think i write this post with proper grammar. what do you think?

this post is meant for apologizing and to give comment to your e-mail.

i am sorry i got mad so easily, without even letting you explain to me first. when i read your e-mail, i felt like a complete idiot. thus, i couldn't made any comment immediately.

i am also really sorry for troubling you, as written on the second part of your e-mail. i realized that i shouldn't have written any of them to you. and if, the fact that me missing you etc is bothering you, making you feel uncomfortable, or think that i am just some freak, please just let me know. i will not disturb your life with my stupid feelings anymore.

yours sincerely,
verni

kesel.
kessseeell banged.

ngebatalin janji di H-1 udah cukup nyebelin.
but it's ok, the reason was acceptable.

pas malem, nelfon lagi.
katanya maw ke binus, sekolah lagi.
hm.. where does the sat placement test go?

abis dari binus, katanya maw ke snayan city lagi.
good, ngebatalin janji bwt bikin janji lainnya ternyata.

it isn't like i don't know that i'm not important.
tapi ternyata sampe ga sepenting itukah? sekarang gw baru taw.
makasih.

ETA;
apa pun itu, saya ga boleh marah-marah..
lebih baik ketemu walaupun setelah dikecewain banged daripada ga ketemu sama sekali.

so, i went to megamal with tinichan, and to her house, her grandpa's house and oceanic cafe.

didn't really expect it would be so much fun.. but it turned out tinichan has made my day=)

ok.. i don't know if i'm gonna be able to post this or not, due to the unfriendly internet connection last days.

a new year should start with a new resolution.
but first, i need to thank God for letting me know you and think about you on each of my days in 2006=) you've been filling my life, changing it. you make my mood swings. happy, anger, sorrow, feel like being blessed, sick of life, feel like being left, happy again, lonely, loved, testing my patience, happy again. i'm happy every time i see you=)

i know i've been foolish and childish, possessive, temperamental, overly sensitive, ..., ..., ... [please fill each '...' with any negative adjective. add as many '...' as you want]
i know i don't deserve them all. the time you spent with me, your patience, all you've given me.
so, thank you.

also,
thank you for the wonderful xmas gift. don't think there'll be anyone else giving it to me.

...
actually, i haven't made my new year resolution yet.

The ‘Blood Type Diet’: Fact or Fiction [short version]

tidur jam 5 pagi, baca 'can't you keep a secret?'. udah berpikir ga maw tidur lagi mpe jam 7, tapi akhirnya ketiduran juga.
dibangunin jam stengah 9an kurang, lalu tidur lagi sampe jam stengah 9.
abiz itu mandi lalu langsung jalan.
waited for you..
met you..
happy=)

thanks for all the wonderful moments^^
merry xmas..

got up early. ate breakfast. took a bath.
went to your house. waited until you came down.
talked with you. ate some snack. you gave me a xmas present=) thanks.
your dad came down. your mom came down.
went to McD. you ate spaghetti and a cone of ice cream. i ate a cone of ice cream. your dad talked about you when you were away.
went to the church with the red car. it didn't took so long, did it? maybe it's because i was with you.
went to the orphanage. still it took so fast.
you looked for the toilet to wash your feet and thongs.
you told me to say 'syalom' when shaking hands.
the orphans looked at you with admiring-look=)
you were going to be one of the singers.
we sat on the floor with the orphans. loved it.
you sang. i didn't know the lyrics, and you dictated it to me. thank you^^
your mom sang cheerfully, your dad danced while singing=)
you told me i have to raise my hands when the word 'berkat' is said.
suddenly, you became a photographer=P was trying to look smart when i wrong-spelled the word 'magazine'^^; enjoyed the chitato-wannabe.
on the way to somewhere-i-didn't-know-yet-that-time, you asked for the titles of songs in my iPod. managed to answer most of the questions correctly=P i love Canon in D.
oh it was Apollo. ate a full-portion of hainam rice. was really full.
went to Mal Artha Gading.
went to Daiso in the mall. spent some time there. loved it. you bought some goods. and yes, your puzzle is still with me.
looked for A&W, where your dad&mom were. went to HokBen, you wanted to eat Ebi Furai, but the Ebi was already sold out.
went to Es Teler 77. you ate the es teler.
went to A&W again. went to Daiso again. you bought a dry-battery can and some more file folders.
went to A&W again to look for your dad&mom&friends. they weren't there.
you called your mom. her cellphone was inactive.
you called your dad. his cellphone was inactive.
went back to Daiso. you called your maid to get your parents' friends cellphone number. it didn't go smoothly. before you got the number, two of the friends clapped their hands, showing up.
went with the two ladies friends of your family. you asked for cellphone number of one of them, to make sure we won't be lost again.
waited for your mom in front of a shop. my aunt called.
went to the furniture shop. sat down on a cozy sofa and took some photos. we did look tired, didn't we?=)
went to another furniture shop. sat down again.
went to a shop which sells household things. some of the cups there look attractive. you bought a marie bowl. someone from my house called.
you bought a strawberry fruit tea for me. thanks for remembering=)
went to a shop which sells xmas-related things. my aunt called you. my bro called you. my cellphone's battery was empty. sorry.
you called my dad. while talking, your credit went to 0. the call dropped.
you asked your dad to call. your dad asked your mom to call.
went to the red car. your mom charged her cellphone. she called my dad. thanks. please say sorry to your mom=)
reached home. it was almost 11. my day has almost ended.

thanks for accompanying me the whole day=)
it was my best two-days-before-xmas ever.
thanks for the xmas present=) like it very much^^
sorry for making you&your mom busy calling my dad, receiving the calls from my aunt&bro.

miss u..

[v] ke Saung bareng elo

accomplished=D